Near Misses in Relationships: Augustine on Sex and Codependency

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Of all the Church Fathers, Augustine of Hippo (354-430) pondered the most on human relationships in general, and heart-friendships in particular. What makes him so readable on this – and on so much else – is the sheer humanity and honesty with which he wrote. His autobiographical Confessions make no attempt to cover his colourful pre-conversion life, where “the madness of lust” made him live “a life in which I was seduced and seducing, deceived and deceiving”.

His conversion experience at age 33 took place in the company of a friend, Alypius, and for the rest of his life he lived in various forms of Christian community, surrounded by others, sharing his life with them. Some of these were particularly close to his heart. With hindsight, Augustine reassesses some earlier relationships which had seemed to be ‘the real thing’, but which proved not to be, as they were founded on two close but wrong ‘cousins’. Let us consider two of these: sex and infatuation (or co-dependency).

In Books 3-6 of the Confessions we find a young woman, whom he does not name, who became the mother of his child. “I loved the idea of love”, he writes, “but I muddied the clear spring of friendship with the dirt of lustful desire.” The couple remained together for 13 years and the bond clearly went deep. When his commitment to his faith led to them parting, “my heart, which clung to her, was broken and wounded and dripping blood.” He adds that the woman never took another man. In a culture where the term “friend” was usually only applied to men, Augustine says a lot about this relationship by referring to his ex-partner as his “friend”.

So, sexual union is not the fulfilment of the heart’s desire for friendship. In our day, when sex is billed as everything and leaves hearts broken and empty when it turns out not to be so, such a voice needs to be heard. But what does it offer instead?

In Book 4 we read of a childhood friend in his native Tagaste (in modern Algeria). They were the same age and had played and gone to school together. The friendship with this lad continued into manhood. It was “sweeter to me than anything I had ever known. My soul could not be without him.” Augustine was devastated when his friend died of a fever. “Tears took the place of my friend in my heart’s love. I was in misery, for I felt that my soul and my friend’s had been one soul in two bodies.”

At this point, a 21st century reader may already be thinking “gay”, even as the archetypal male heart-bond of David and Jonathan in the Bible is interpreted as “gay” in some circles today [1 Samuel 20:17; 2 Samuel 1:26]. But we should remember that such a branding of all same-sex attraction is an invention of the 19th century; it was not thought about that way in previous times and we must avoid crude retro-projections of modern interpretations.

More useful to us is Augustine’s own judgement with the benefit of hindsight: “We depended too much on each other… He was not a friend in the true meaning of friendship.” Here, then, is the second ‘near miss’ on the road to deep heart-friendship: the persuasive but largely mythical idea of the “bosom buddy” who will meet all your emotional needs and where the relationship seems to require little real work.

 

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About Trevor Saxby

I'm a mentor, friend to many, with a PhD in church history. I love learning from the 'movers and shakers' of the past, as I want to be one today!

5 responses to “Near Misses in Relationships: Augustine on Sex and Codependency”

  1. Jeffrey O'Rourke says :

    very good. look forward to the next installments

  2. Trevor Saxby says :

    Thanks, Jeffrey. In fact, I'm looking forward to writing them!

  3. Jules says :

    Really interesting … looking forward to part 2. Not much seems to be written on the important subject of friendship in recent times .. although lots on marriage..I think many people are perhaps afraid of same sex deep friendships because, as you say, such bonding can so readily be seen as a gay attraction….sad…. we can really miss out. For me, deep same-sex, pure relationships are like metal rods within the cement.. bringing unbeatable strength to the foundations of the building

  4. Trevor Saxby says :

    A great image, Jules, those steel reinforcing bars. Thank you for it. It is a thousand pities that the Christian demonisation of all things gay has had the effect of removing all other shades than the requisite “black and white”. And yet, chances are, those very proponents are inwardly lonely and in many cases friendless in any deep sense.

  5. sch0larly says :

    (via Facebook) Francis George Bedding comments: He may be a good read, certainly a clever accomplished thinker & writer, but he may have a lot to answer for the negative influence in so many Christians.. but no more than all those who have down the centuries, and still use his ‘post sexual life’ (after his conversion) writings of his own experiences as a weapon to attack or dismiss natural human desires in others.

    (My reply): Thank you for these comments, George. For anyone wanting some background here, this short article on Augustine and Sexuality (http://bit.ly/1osY54X) gives an overview of Augustine’s condemnation of lustful desire, and of the ascetic climate in the church of his day.
    Where Augustine is clearly ‘over the top’ is in his virtual equation of sexual desire with original sin – when we all know this was desire for chocolate!

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